Conflicting Emotions

Saturday -

Blue and I felt like this:

Just kinda Blah.

The Holiday is over,
Come on 2016! blue's.

Then on Sunday - I was watching the Sunday Morning Show

They ran the End of Year segment called 

Hail and Farewell.

A memorandum to all the famous and not so famous people who passed this year.

Some, I knew of their passing

but some left me surprised and little bit shocked.

And then I started feeling a bit depressed....

I moped around a bit and I drove out to the place where my booth is.
I need to have everything gone and outta there by Friday.
The NEW Year.
The woman at the counter is always very nice and bubbly.
She told me that SHE was the one moving into my booth space.
She was SO excited! It's in a nice spot and it's bigger than what she had.
So I got to thinking about the retro shelving unit I have that ran the wall.
I hadn't been sure how I'd get it out of there.
And once I did, I really have no place for it at home.
So I looked at her happy face and walked back and marked it WAY down.
Then I stopped at the counter and told her that I just marked it super low and she might want to run back there and check it out.
I ended up stopping again later, to take some more things and she thanked me over and over again for letting her know and then I asked her if she wanted the rug.
She looked at it and asked me how much.
I looked at it and knew I had no place for it.
It had been walked on and looked worn to me, so I told her.
You can have it, it's free.
Then I left.
I drove home and felt good.
I'm not usually able to help people out. Not much, at least not monetarily but
she was always so nice and what was I going to do with it anyway?
Besides, I've had so many thoughtful gifts lately, that I felt the need to pay it forward.
I went home and started reading one of my books that was a Christmas gift to me from a dear friend.
It started making me happy and motivated.

I started feeling lucky again.

Lucky to be alive.

Lucky to be healthy.

Lucky to have the ability to make changes in my life.

Lucky to have wonderful friends in my life.

I started looking at some photos that I've taken and got to messing around.
I altered them and made them more "Artsy".

I think I might include them in my "Shop" too.
I want to have several sections in my Etsy shop.
Prints,
Cards,
Calendars,
Maybe some wearable Art. A pin or a necklace of my Art.
Maybe I'll make small little cats like I used to, tiny primitive painted fabric ones.
I did those one year for Valentines Day and sold them ALL!
Yes! Maybe I'll make my broken-hearted cats again!
What a difference a day makes.

Today, Monday - I woke up to freezing rain.
Drove to work and beat everyone in!
I was the first one in and I live in another state! LOL!
But I did set my alarm for EARLY because I knew that
it would be crazy busy, a ton of dogs going home after a Christmas boarding stay.
I tried to get them outside to potty but I'd see them squinting their eyes in the icy rain pellets.

A few on them just won't go out by themselves,so I stood outside with them,
wondering why I had blown-dry my hair straight.
I could almost physically feel it curl up on my head.
The wind would catch the boarding door and wet cold ice would blow in.
I would watch the little dogs tetter and totter in the wind of this ice storm

and I'd run back out and scoop them up.
I'd laugh and hold them against my chest and looking down into their little faces and say
IT"S COLD OUT THERE!
and they'd look up and give me kisses.

I suppose I should feel irritated instead.
Mad that some people didn't make it in.
Mad that it's now a full fledged ice storm.
Mad that everyone else is warm inside and I'm running around being pelted by ice rain.
but
I'm not.

and then, one more thing-
I had posted on Facebook that I wished that Starbucks delivered coffee
and then one of the office girls decided to do a coffee run and brought me back a Starbuck's White Mocha.
Life is good and I am grateful.