Monday, November 26, 2012

SOMETHING'S WRONG and

I'm taking a break.
I don't know what's wrong with me but everything is irritating me lately.
I mean EVERYTHING.
and I'm not sure why.
I just feel angry.
maybe it's my hormones or something. (I hate when other people blame their rude behavior on stuff like that)
See what I mean.
Everything is bugging me.
I just want to bite everyones head off.
I know that a FEW different things have sent me into this direction,
but, I usually can deal with those types of things.
Except...
for the fact that a cat of mine who's been living at the clinic because my big cats pick on him,
a cat that my niece loves very much and wants for her own when she moves out after graduation,
a cat that I kept saying that he looked sick and I paid for expensive bloodwork etc. to be run on him back in August
and I was told the tests showed nothing...
I found out on Friday that no vet was shown the results.
And he's now in liver failure.
The xrays and ultrasound are showing a HUGE mass tumor.
It's crowding his organs, his stomach, covering the liver.
Prognosis - not good.
His mouth and around his eyes are a yellow color today.
Doc said he's going to open him up tomorrow and see if there's anything he can do.
See how bad it is, maybe he can get the tumor.
It's the size of a baseball.
He says it's not looking good but he will try.
I guess it depends on what it's attached to.
If he doesn't do this surgery, my cat won't be here much longer.
He said if he can't get it, he won't wake him up and he'll let him "go".....
Yeah.
I will never trust anyone again.
I usually don't. I'm more of the in your face "What's going on with my critter!" kind of person.
but I dropped the ball.
I believed someone cared about him as much as they said they did.
I had a talk with Doc about this.
He knows that I am going straight to HIM from now on.
He's fine with that.
anyway.....just one of the things making me cranky, crazy and wanting to SCREAM.
so, I'm taking a break until I can get it together and be nice again.

8 comments:

An Urban Cottage said...

This is how I felt about health care for humans about a week and half ago.

I know where you're coming from. It's hard to find people who care the way you and I care about things. For the most part, people disappoint me. They just don't care anymore...except about themselves.

Does that make me a curmudgeon? It's okay if the answer is yes. I'll embrace it.

Good luck with the cat. :(

sassypackrat said...

I'm so very sorry! Take some time for you. We will all be here when you are ready to come back.

Mary Helen-Art Saves Lives said...

I am praying for peace for you...you are human and he could not really tell you what was happening. I know he knows he was loved dearly. Be gentle with yourself...it is okay to step back...I wish I could send you a real hug and warm hot tea..a moment to reflect! Peace, Mary Helen

Sundays Child said...

Reading your post made me feel so sad, I could feel my eyes starting to tear. I am so sorry this is happening to you.

Really, I would want to find the person responsible for not passing on the test results and kick their a$$ good and hard, scream at them and make them feel like crap and demand a refund of the cost of the blood work, since nothing was done with it anyway! But .. that's just me. Ahem. I DO think the doctor has a responsibility to find out who it is in his office that isn't doing their job.

Prayers that kitty pulls through okay .. I understand the love you feel for him, I feel the same about my beloved baby.
Hugs, if you want one,
Julie Andrea
sundayschild1966(AT)yahoo(DOT)com

Nita {ModVintageLife} said...

I'm so sorry to hear this. Yes, seems no one really cares. I call customers to let them know when something they commented on wanting when it came in comes in. They are always shocked that I remember. I make notes. They are not big things but I care to try and make people happy. I'd go crazy working at a vet trying to make sure everything was done at its best. I'm hoping the best for you and your cat. Please let me know. Love you....

yoborobo said...

I hope your doc can help him. I'm sad for you. I don't blame you one bit for being angry. Sending lots of love & hugs - xox

thecottagebythecranelaketwo said...

some days or weeks or even months just are like that and it surely doesn't help when things like that happens. Poor cat!

I do hope You'll feel better soon.
Take care my friend.
Christer.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry.
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