WHITE HOT RAGE

I had thought I'd write a post this morning about this being my first day off of a very short vacation.

Wednesdays are my usual day off and

I have today, tomorrow and my usual Saturday morning off.

A mini-vacation.

I wanted to just paint.

No cleaning, tidying or yard work.

(Although I did pick up a few plants yesterday, BIG perennials on sale for $3.99)

and yet, here I sit on the computer.

Starting yesterday I received many texts, several messages via Private Messages on Facebook

and a phone call.

I debated posting about this but this is weighing so heavy on my heart that I must.

If you have been reading my blog for a while you will recall that there was a woman at my place of work who got caught telling the wage of a co-worker.

When questioned by HR, she said that I had told her. That I had gone into the Vet's office and looked at the check and then told everyone.

I had not done this thing.

When I was approached by HR I was so shocked that I immediately swore on Blue's life that it was not true.

Anyone that knows me, knows I wouldn't do this thing and definitely not EVER swear on my boys life.

Ultimately she confessed.

After a while, she was fired.

I even had to sit in on a conference call with the unemployment office where she once again confessed to going into the office, looking at the check and telling everyone the wage

and then she confessed that she did indeed blamed it all on me.

So... life goes on.

She's gone and out of my life.

She lives out in the country in a Rent to Own home and has a kennel building behind it where she breeds dogs.

She goes to dog shows and shows her dogs and shows other peoples dogs too.

She even traveled to Ireland to get a "special" puppy to breed to one of her dogs.

The puppy cost several thousands of dollars.

(He's the one on the left.)

I have a friend who lives past her place.

When there were the bad storms and tornadoes a month or so back my friend had commented that there was some damage done to this woman's property.

She mentioned something about the roof and also some of the fencing in the back area.

At the time I expressed my concern about her dogs but my friend said she never saw them outside anymore and that this woman had most likely taken them to Chicago were she had Breeder friends.

She said she highly doubted that she had the dogs any longer.

She said this woman had so many contacts in the breeding/show community that she had probably divided them up among those people.

Yesterday I get a text from someone that they just heard that there was a warrant out for this woman's arrest.

Apparently the people who owned the property had roofers go out to work on the roof.

When they got there, there was a horrible smell. Something that was so awful that they called the Sheriff.

The Sheriff came and found all the dogs except 3 dead.

They had been starved to death and the three remaining ones were barely hanging on and rushed to a vet clinic.

(not our clinic but one in her area)

and after some phones calls among breeders, apparently there was a fourth dog traveling with her to Chicago.

Our clinic found out about all of this because they scanned the dogs for micro-chips and they had been implanted at our clinic.

That is how everyone found out. That clinic had called our clinic.

Then, another woman at our clinic, who used to be friendly with this woman (before all the lies were discovered)

and who still breeds and shows dogs of her own was contacted by another breeder friend.

This woman that still works with us, has an elaborate and very expensive faculty and cares for her dogs with the very best of everything.

I personally won't go into my thoughts about breeding here.

That's not what this post is about today.

So I guess this woman, the one that lied about me, made it to Chicago but was turned away when her Chicago friend learned the truth

and that's when the phone calls started?  Not sure, but anyway...

Then I received messages that they heard that she was returning to the area, to turn herself into the authorities.

This morning I get another message that she had indeed returned and checked herself into a Mental Health facility

and was under Suicide Watch.

The dog she had with her, was taken and is now with the woman from work.

I have been long past any anger about her trying to do me in at work.

I figured she's gone and I have moved on.

I'm not fan of hers but I had reached a point of just indifference about her.

But now....

Yesterday I couldn't even think straight.

All I wanted was someone to place her in a dog crate and leave her to pee and poop and eat her own excrement until she starved.

Yep. That's how I felt.

Today I'm not much better.

When I received the message that she was under Suicide Watch, my reply was that I hoped they didn't watch her closely.

I'm sorry, but that's how I feel.

If someone does something so hideous to an animal or a child or an elderly person....

I have no Mercy for them and I want the same done to them.

She had so may resources available to her.

People in her breeding/show community.

Specific breed rescues.

Hell, she could have called me and I would have come with my van and filled it and taken them to work and found them homes.

I know without a doubt, that if she had called Doc, he would have done something.

She could have called a shelter or even the sheriff's office and said that she needed help.

Instead she let them starve.

Later this morning, as more details come out, I find out that she didn't just leave them.

She actually lived there with them as they starved and that some of them had been dead for a while...

including her Ireland dog.

I can't get this out of my head.

I alternate between rage and grief and horror.

And now I'm remembering how she used to tell me at work that if anything ever happened to me,

that she would want my Blue.

She had said she'd fix up her spare bedroom for him and for me to make sure to put her in my "will" stating that she got Blue.

(Of course Lily gets everyone. So no worries there but...just the thought makes me want to vomit.)

I'm sorry to share this with you all. 

I just needed to let you know...I'm going to take a little break from here.

Maybe.

I don't know.

You all are my support system, my friends....

I just need to get my emotions under control.

I just need to relax and work on some Art and spend time with my animals

and hold them close to my heart.